Baby Daze

So, one of these days, very shortly, I'll have a new little one to hold in my arms. I must say, I'm ready for it RIGHT NOW. Not only am I so eager to meet her and see what type of personality she'll have, but I am so tired of having to deal with this one doctor in the practice with which I deal.

I'm going to make this blog entry all about whining and complaining. If you don't like it - deal. I'm pregnant, cranky and need to vent. So there.

I have spent much of this pregnancy tired and emotional - and I know a lot of it is due to this doctor. I'm afraid. Seriously. I don't know what I'll do if I go into labor and have him as my doctor. I'm praying that I don't have that worry in the delivery room - and I've asked friends and family to do the same.

Let's go back to the beginning of my problems with Dr. Bad. He just came into the practice. We have to see all of the doctors in the practice. I'm okay with this as I love my main doctor and the second is pretty awesome as well. They're both laid back, tell you (it) like it is and are in no way alarmist. So, I was thinking Dr. Bad was going to be the same.

I was wrong. I went to him for the first time when I was around 18 weeks. First off, I was his first appointment of day - and he was approx 45 minutes late. Also, by this appointment, I'd been reducing the amt of Metformin and just needed doc's last okay to go off of it at this appointment. Unfortunately, he decided I was killing the baby as I should have been off of it at 12 weeks, exactly. He decided I needed to go to a specialist. ASAP. He also decided I needed to take 1 hour glucose test.

Oh - another thing!!!! His office helped had taken my blood pressure. She said it was high, so she instantly switched to the other arm and said "oh, it's still high". REALLY? you mean it didn't come down in the two seconds it took you to switch arms???? AND she told me I'd get a high tech ultrasound @ specialist. This was after she yelled at me for not having had a 20 week ultrasound - um, not my decision. Believe me, if I could, I'd have an ultrasound done weekly just to watch the amazing progress of a growing baby.

So anyway, off to specialist I went.

And I was treated like an idiot as specialist told me to go off meds as I was currently doing (specialist had all notes and didn't understand why Dr. Bad had decided it was an emergency to see him).

Next time I had the joy of Dr. Bad - it was to tell me my 1 hour glucose test was good - but he needed me to do a 3 hour - just because I was off of Metformin.

Then, the next appointment with him . . . he told me the baby was obviously measuring bigger due to metformin and I needed to have another ultrasound to check on her weight. Again, this was different than everything up to this point. 20 week ultrasound reflected baby a week and a half behind . . . Drs A and B both said I was measuring the same with each appt and belly measurement.

So, went to ultrasound. Baby was ***SURPRISE*** a week and a half behind.

At that ultrasound, it was determine my heart rate and baby's was high. So, Dr. A sent me to Labor and Delivery to be monitored. Heart rate returned to normal quickly. Dr. A also had bloodwork run just in case - since I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's and the heart rate was "trucking along."

After that appt - saw Dr. B. He thought everything was fine - and Dr. A. had received bloodwork results and saw nothing wrong.

Go to Doctor Bad. Had to wait another 45 minutes as first patient before being seen. Of course, he decided that my bloodwork and the blood pressure/pulse readouts I had taken over the course of the week were "high". My BP is measuring as low and pulse high 80s/low 90s. Baby, at appts, was around 154 bpm. These are all same measurements - execpt for the one bad day - and he had told me before they were fine.

He said I have hypERthyroidism and need to get to endocrinologist ASAP. He told me that I wouldn't understand the hypERthyroidism and didn't bother to explain more. Hello - I'm not a freaking idiot - talk to me. He said he was faxing my results to my doc in meadville . . . uh? I don't have a doc in Meadville. I corrected him more than once - made me feel he gets a bonus for each patient he sends to Meadville.

So, I made appt with Dr. T.

In meantime, had appt with Dr. A. Dr. A said there was NOTHING wrong with my bloodwork and test results and there was NO REASON to go to specialist - but to go just b/c I should have her look the results over - and let everyone know things were okay.

Went to Dr. T today. Dr. Bad will be glad to know that Dr. T believes it was total waste of her time and mine because my bloodwork was in the normal range . . . and if anything was high, it was due to my being pregnant.

Oh, and Dr. Bad never did send that letter to Dr. T. stating that I was hyperthyroid and what my test results were - they had to get them faxed from hptl while I waited.

Me Time Update

I finished up the Clomid on Friday. The 50mg a day was not bothersome. After reading some of the message board postings, I had been worried that I might have hot flashes, horrid mood swings or nausea. The only thing that I can say I had was fatigue. I was beyond tired at night. So, when 700 would come around, I was pretty much in bed. I couldn't stand to stay up and blog after Miss Mia was asleep.

Another "me" thing has been my goal of 10,000 steps. I've completed that goal every day - but today. After yesterday's workout, I was a little sore. I also thought I needed to give myself a break - not really certain it's good for the body to work out 45 minutes or so each day, especially just starting out. Yah, those are all excuses for what comes down to "I'm just lazy and couldn't push myself to move my butt!"

Good news - I'm still down on weight. Even with the pizza night last night! I'm excited. I might finally be starting on the right path for weight loss!

Oh - and my legs, starting to look fab! LOVE it - I mean, them!

Still taking cinnamon and fish oil supplement as well as the prenatal vitamin. The 2500 mg metformin XR a day are not kicking my butt. So, very happy with that as well! Just can't wait until I lose weight and can reduce amount I'm on! Fingers crossed!

Tomorrow - jumping back on the work out trail!

Steve and I are "enjoying" the "every other night" part of the Clomid prescription. This will continue for the next week - through at least next Monday. And no, I'm not thinking of the doc while we follow the prescription!

Me Time (Part 2)

The day is coming to a close. I'm curled up in bed under my quilts and feather comforter. My adorable little Miss Mia is curled up beside me, reliving the excitement of the day in her dreams. I am going to try to remember all that Dr. T. told me . . .

It began with her being 45 minutes late . . . and I was her first appointment.

I did not have a good mindset when she came in. Sorry, but 45 minutes late when the weather was beautiful and the roads were perfect is just beyond rude. So, when she walked in, I wasn't my usual, perky, chit chatty self. I think she realized that. She went through the thick folder containing all of my blood work, etc. She told me that two of the levels were high, the TSH and DHEA (I'm guessing on the second, not 100%). My thyroid hormones were all on the high side of normal. So, she said it was definite that I had PCOS and Hashimoto's. She was going to continue treating the Insulin Resistance part of PCOS, but there was nothing to be done with the Hashimoto's as the levels were still within "normal" range.

She was most upset with my weight - and the fact I actually gained a pound since July (seriously, I think I'm the same as then. Hello, wearing heavy sweater over shirt with jeans and heavy winter shoes. Summer, I just had on jeans, tshirt and sneakers). But, beside the whine on my end, she emphasized a few times that I need, need NEED to lose weight.

She was on board with Dr. D prescribing the Clomid. She did tell me to call ASAP should I get preggers b/c she'll need to start running thyroid checks monthly b/c it could be a potentially life-threatening situation for the babe. Also, with my dose of meds being so high (she increased to the absolute max of 2500), they might want to take me off for the first trimester and then put me back on after. I'm praying that doesn't happen. I'd like to have second pregnancy to be med free, just like the first.

I took my first 2500 dose tonight. Feeling it. Got the woozy headache. As soon as I post this, I'm turning off the lights and going to sleep.

I know there is more that we talked about today, but cannot recall the entire conversation at present. I'll make an update later this weekend if I remember more.

Me Time

After my appointment with Dr. D last week, I did get my first 'script for Clomid. It's sitting here, on my counter, waiting for the right day to start taking it. What kinda scares me are some of the different blogs and discussion boards with other women TTC. A lot of them seem to have symptoms associated with the drugs. I do NOT need more moodswings! Poor Steve!

Plus, a lot of these women are on a lot higher doseages of the meds. Dr. D doesn't think a woman needs to be stuffed so full of drugs!

This is month 12 in our TTC #2 journey.

For the past 3 days, I've felt as though I've had my period. But - there was nothing. I even woke up early Wednesday morning from the cramps that were so bad. Yesterday, I finally had some spotting and was beyond tired in the evening. Today, full on heavy AF with the usual ache in my lower back and legs. Still really drained, but am up to eat breakfast so I can go see Dr. T, my PCOS doc.

Speaking of Dr. T, I feel as though she's been neglecting me. Seriously. She upped my metXR RX to 2000mg a day and never had me back for bloodwork or a check up in the 6 months since she upped me. She was of the mindset that I would be preggers and not need to come back. Well Hello! Guess I fooled her! PCOS symptoms are getting much worse - won't go into details b/c just brings me down, but just take my word for it.

So, Dr. T and I will be having a chat today. I'm trying to figure out if I need to switch to a reproductive endocrinologist who treats not only the entire insulin resistence part of the PCOS, but also the horrid periods, acne, mood swings thing that goes right along with it.

Decisions.

I guess we'll just wait and see how this appointment goes. Seriously - can she up my meds anymore? I'm already on the high end of recommended doseage!

I'll keep you updated! And please, if it's not too greedy of me, please pray for me - not necessarily that I get preggers, but that we can get this PCOS beast under control and I can get back in charge of my life!