Prison

Tonight, when I sit here, I think this picture fits me perfectly. It's a pic of the gate leading to my front door. It's frozen shut due to the massive amount of freezing rain, rain, sleet and snow we were hit with today.

I feel like I'm frozen in place. I have been doing so many workouts and changing how I eat, and I'm getting nowhere. Weighing myself, I see that, in the 5 weeks I've been working out, I'm down approx three pounds. TOTAL. I also found out tonight that I will not be able to continue drinking pop. I had a few sips of orange pop tonight and was instantly sick. I'm glad I'm not a big pop fan to begin with!

Back to the weight thing. One of my co-workers, a sweet and wonderful, not to mention caring, woman, asked me today if I were pregnant again. She and I don't work the same schedule and she was seeing me for the first time in a long while. She swore that my rounded belly was the sign of a new life being formed. How sad and depressing when I had to tell her it was just one of the symptoms of PCOS - the joy of looking pregnant when your body refuses to BE pregnant. If you can't tell, that last was said just DRIPPING with sarcasm.

So yeah, it wasn't the best of days. I do believe I might try to get in touch with my doctor or even the health insurance just to see if there is any help I can get i/e a dietitian, or books to read. Something that will help me with the weight stagnation, and the desire to continue changing my diet to a much healthier one that will be good not only for me, but for the rest of my family.

Crib Recall and Sleep Issues

We have been trying to get through the separation anxiety phase Amelia has currently found herself in. We had been doing well until about 2 weeks ago when I heard that Stork Craft had recalled ALL of their cribs made from 1999 to present. Yes, We have a Stork Craft and yes, that would mean our crib was among those recalled. They stated no children had died due to the faulty brackets, but they still suggested the cribs stopped being used until replacement parts could be sent out.

That meant, we had to come up with a new sleeping spot for Miss Mia. We decided she would share the bed with me while Steve slept on the floor. So, at night, surrounded by pillows, Miss Mia would cuddle with me.

I FINALLY got word from Stork Craft that they had received my email this past Friday. Almost two full weeks since the recall was announced. So, getting a little frustrated at how long this was lasting, and knowing that we were taking a zillion steps back, I had Steve pull out the Pack and Play and set it up in our bedroom. She can still be with us, but also get used to sleeping by herself.

Here she is, all cuddled up in the Pack N Play with her Lovey (transitional object) and her Strawberry Shortcake Comforter Mom gave her before she was even born. Isn't she just too cute and cuddly?

Quilting

Yep, we worked on Aunt Tortie's Quilt for awhile. Miss Mia was trying to decide what type pattern to use. Should it be random? Should we make a Star? Stripes? Decisions. Decisions.

Pumpkin Muffins

I'm working at finding foods that I can make and still enjoy with the dietary restrictions I'm *supposed* to be following. I've come up with this recipe that I like . . .

1/2 cup butter
1 cup white sugar
1 tsp molasses
1/2 c applesauce
1 cup pureed pumpkin (2 cups if using canned pumpkin)
2 tsp Cinnamon
2 1/2 cups whole wheat flour
2 tsp baking soda
pinch of salt

Mix it up. Makes 12 muffins. 350 for around 20 minutes.

I'm currently working on removing the sugar and replacing it with honey. So far, I did 1/2 and 1/2 and the muffins still were delicious!

Snow

We've got snow! When I say this, I mean . . . we have at least 18 inches of the white stuff piled up outside! Our driveway is beginning to look like a tunnel through a mountain!











We've had Miss Mia out in the white stuff, but she's not a fan. She hates the feel of snowflakes melting on her face.



My pics don't do justice to how much snow is out there :)

Slacker

I am a horrid slacker.

I haven't started working on my Mary Kay totals for last year's taxes.

I haven't put all my Christmas Decorations away.

I haven't stared on Amelia's scrapbook.

Heck, I still owe my best friend her Wedding Quilt - from the week before Amelia was born.

What I do know is that the time I've been able to spend with Amelia has been well worth being a slacker in all other parts of my life! I love the little gal so much more each day. She's starting to pull herself up, using anything possible. She's even to the point where, if nothing is around, she's pushing herself up. Yeh, not meeting with much success there; she topples over rather quickly.

For me, being on my meds have brought the positive change of very rare migraines. When I do have one, it's not nearly as killer as before. I still have all the other issues, and they don't seem to be lessening. I'm wondering if that means I'm closer to diabetes and will need my meds increased next time I go back. I don't like that idea at all.

I have also noticed an increase in depression. It might be because of the massive amount of snow outside, but it's still beautiful, so I don't think that's it. Last Tuesday was so bad, I spent the entire evening in bed crying. Steve and Amelia weren't able to do anything to cheer me up. I guess, if this keeps up, I'll be talking to the doc about that as well.

Had my second period since the baby. This one was horrid. Wish someone would've warned me. UGH. But, it is nice to know that my body is following a schedule instead of going months between like it was doing (another positive for the meds).

I found a good support group. It's been a relief to read through other people's symptoms and know that I'm not the only one out there feeling like the world's biggest freak. In a lot of ways, I have it much better . . . I was able to get pregnant after only 18 months - and not using Clomid. I pray for the others in my group who are having difficulties. I know what it was like to have so many preggers friends - and half of them laughing about how they hadn't even been trying.

To go along with the above - have been keeping up my workout. It gets really discouraging as I've been working out 2 times a day, for around 60-90 minutes total daily workouts and I'm only down 5 pounds since the 31st of December. Sometimes, I really, really, really hate having PCOS and just wanna scream. Seriously. I love working out, but if I miss a day, I gain at least 3 pounds. My life, right now, is focused on working out, and everything else is coming in a very distant second. I need to get my weight down. Doc was quite adamant about that. My goal is still high school weight, but that's a dream that will never, ever come true. Heck, my goal is to be under 160. Been working at that one now for a month and we're not there. Gee - and I wonder why I have such horrid bouts of depression????

I have so many more entries that need published. Including the food experiments. I'll get there. Still having the Amelia sleep difficulties, so that has kinda pushed all the rest of my evening chores aside. We'll get there . . . .