This is why PCOS is evil!
I'm going on more than a week late with my period . . . yes, again. So, to make certain my insulin meds aren't hurting the baby, I get to take lots of pregnancy tests. Unfortunately, they always have the same result - one line instead of two.
Someone I know, no names mentioned, has had 3 abortions . . . couldn't I just borrow her unwanted fertility for one month? I only want one more baby. I love my Miss Mia and I don't want her to be an only child.
Don't get me wrong, I am more than grateful for having Miss Mia. Seriously, each and every time I'm holding her, I just marvel at her existence! I don't want to sound ungrateful. I don't want to sound as though I don't thank God every night when I say my prayers that He heard me and gave me the most wonderful child I could ever want.
I'm greedy.
I love being a mommy and want to be a mommy again and again and again. Oh wait, no, that might be triplets!
Anyway . . . we've got another negative and I'm wishing chocolate was a PCOS-ly acceptable food group.
LOL..I know I told you to do the test..just didn't actally think you'd be blogging it. The only thing I can say, is from my own expirences--there is a lesson you are suppose to learn from all of this--yeah, uh-no I do not have a clue as to what, but this is what me and my family believe when things like this happen. I know I'm never going to be a "mom", but yet, I have spent mucho time with my nieces an nephews and when I tutored/worked with troubled kids--I understood why I do not have kids-if I had my own I would not be able to help those that I meet. Who are so in need of someone just to listen and to let them know that they are not worthless, and not to loose hope as they can make it. So, again, you have a lesson in this--but that will be for you to discover ;)
ReplyDeleteThe lesson for me lately has been - "WATCH OUT! The minute you go on detail, you're get your friendly visitor and have to have someone let in you to the office from you zillion restroom breaks! HA! Love that it waited 'til I couldn't use the potty on my own to show up!
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