Dear PCOS

Dear PCOS,

Hello.  I have finally found the time to sit down and write you a letter since you've forced made your way back into my life.  I wasn't the happiest when I realized that you and I were uneasy partners again, especially when it no longer feels as though we're 50/50.

I just have a few things I need to talk with you about . . . . the first being my fertility.  Now that I have gone through two pregnancies and then two periods of being off all of my meds while breastfeeding, I understand the reason you made me infertile . . . . you knew I would enjoy being pregnant!  You knew I wouldn't have the migraines every night!  This time around, I am beginning to understand you so much more!

Next, the weight gain!  I'm thinking you make me gain weight so easily to ensure that I keep on track with my workouts!  You WANT me to be healthy, and in your little messed up way, making me gain 3 pounds in a week just by being a little lazy with my workouts is just to ensure I quickly resume my workouts! 

Depression!  This was a little harder to understand, but then again, if all life's lessons were easy, we wouldn't enjoy learning!  I have determined you have me sinking into a pretty good depression lately to ensure I enjoy each and every giggle my girls surprise out of me. 

I am warning you, I go see our doctor in a little over 2 weeks.  I'm starting to make a list of topics I would like to discuss with her, including a new medication that sounds interesting.  I also hope to share with her that, although you're back in my life, I'm working hard at making this a more balanced relationship through lifestyle modifications, including diet and exercise.  My goal is to be on lowest dose of meds possible and for you to be nothing more than a silent partner!

Again, I just wanted to acknowledge your presence in my life and to let you know, this WILL be a balanced relationship; you will NOT be in charge of me!

~ Jaime